Anticipation

I have sore throat..
And I think I am coming down with a fever
But the fact that tonight I am going to meet Mr. E
Give me the courage that I need to be ok
I need to be on my feet and hold him
I can’t wait to meet him
It has been 3 weeks since we last met
All the obstacles
And after this.. It would be another 4 more weeks before we meet again
I talk to him yesterday
I call him up
He said he was expecting to receive an sms by today to confirm
But he was surprise to receive a call yesterday

Somehow I feel that
He is no longer interested in me
Maybe
…

Maybe what I need to do
Is to write down a list

Yeah as if I have the guts to ask him …

I wonder why he is doing this to me …
I do wonder